I Should Have Let You Go

Rain on the badge Blood on the floor Your name in the dark And my hand on the door Ada... I should have let you go First day in hell, blue lights in the street Raccoon City had teeth underneath I was still young, still clean, still wrong Then you walked through the smoke like a beautiful gun You had a lie in a black dress smile I had a heart that could not read knives We ran through the dead, through the locked down night Two lost souls under red warning lights I caught your hand at the edge of the fall Thought I was saving you from it all But some ghosts do not die when they drop Some wounds learn your name and never stop I should have let you go When the dark pulled you back When the city burned its mark In the badge on my back But I run into the fire Every time your shadow shows I keep saving the knife That cuts me close Ada I should have let you go Years came heavy, colder than steel I learned how to kill, not how to heal Then the church bell rang in a village of graves And there you were again, walking separate ways Red like a warning, calm like sin Same old ghost with a new way in You had orders hidden under your breath I had one more girl to pull back from death You moved through the castle like night had a key Leaving just enough of yourself to haunt me Every door you closed, I followed slow Like a fool with a gun And a debt to a ghost I should have let you go When the dark pulled you back When Raccoon burned its mark In the badge on my back But I run into the fire Every time your shadow shows I keep saving the knife That cuts me close Ada I should have let you go Let you go Let you go But my hands still know Where you fall, I go Let you go Let you go God help me I should have let you go Every kiss was a cover Every goodbye was a gun You never stayed for daylight I never knew when to run Say you never needed saving Say I never knew the truth Then why does every nightmare Lead me right back to you? I have bled for your secrets I have lied to my scars You disappear by morning I carry where you are No clean ending No white road Just your red shadow And my black soul Ada... I should have let you go I should have let you go In the lab lights and rain In the ruins of that city When you vanished again But I walked through the nightmare Where your red shadow glowed I kept saving the woman Who buried my soul Ada I should have let you go If mercy is a sickness I let it grow If love is a weapon You taught it to load Rain on the badge Blood on the floor Your name in the dark And my hand on the door Ada... I should have let you go